Jesus: “I leave you peace. It is my own peace I give you. I give you peace in a different way than the world does. So don’t be troubled. Don’t be afraid.” – John 14:27
Today I’m going to write a little about a difficult subject. Not my usual fare, but it’s unavoidably front and center now so I can’t really blog from my heart without at least a small reference.
I’m talking about aging, and the challenges that come when parents need help but it’s not exactly the kind of help anyone is comfortable with from either end of the equation.
Of course, that’s why we have my parents’ house exactly next door, so that if anyone needs anything, well there we are. In consequence I do a little cooking, I run errands, and I provide taxi service when necessary. Then, once in a while, when dad can’t quite get to a place where he remembers where he is, and what needs to be done, or how to do it, the definition of help needs to broaden some, and then it’s not so straightforward.
Today has been another one of those days, and I have to write about it, just to help me process if nothing else.
Leaking around the eyes:
Going forward, I’m more afraid of my emotions than anything else. Today I came home, I made a cup of tea (of course), and I decided to play my guitar to soothe my soul. That’s all very well, in theory, but then I noticed I’d moved through a few songs without thinking and now I was playing the chords to one of my favorite James Taylor songs, “Shower the People.”
Shower the people you love with love, show them the way that you feel.
Things are gonna work out fine if you only will, just
shower the people you love with love, show them the way you feel.
Things are gonna be much better if you only will.
I play with a lot of heart – chords that speak as well as sing – it’s how I’ve always handled the guitar, but this time I accessed a little too much heart and I found myself leaking around the eyes. Tears? Really? Give me a break.
But this is where we are at the moment, and I understand I’m far from alone in this. Here’s the thing, I know that God is with us as a very real presence, and I have absolute confidence that faith is no incidental sideshow in this extremely difficult leg of the journey.
Great is God’s faithfulness; such blessed assurance; what a friend we have in Jesus.
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases, his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. – Lamentations 3:22-23